What a rough few weeks! Midterms was sad, my wallet has been sad (although my student loans should be arriving soon) and my sleeping schedule is sad! I've been suffering from a bit of insomnia for the past three months or so and it's not pleasant at all. It doesn't help when I have to wake up for a class at 8:30 am, which by the way, I never attend. I can't wait until this school term finally ends! I will be going to Los Angeles for a 1-2 week vacation, which I am very excited for. I will use this blog as a way to document the trip.
psych class and an important life lesson.
This week I attended a very interesting psychology lecture, which talked about why people get into bad relationships. My professor discussed a model she uses for her clients to describe complicated relationship problems, which can also be applied to other parts of life and not just relationships. Most of the lecture was a lot of confusing theory, which I am not allowed to talk about since it's a copyrighted theory, but at the end of lecture I got some very interesting and valuable advice that can be applied in my own life. Basically, people who are mentally strong, grounded and make good decisions are the ones who hold strong values and beliefs within themselves and can refer to them whenever necessary. Those who lack this ability are the ones who constantly rely on external entities, such as other people and objects, including family, friends, partners, money, hot cars, hot clothes, a school mark or a test score. These people can fall and lose themselves very easily because they are so attached to these external entities that when one loses hold of one of these entities, they don't have nothing else to hold on to, and thus they fall hard and lose track of their life, which leads to consequences such as depression. However, if a person is grounded on their own internal values and beliefs, then even when they lose hold of such an external entity, they can't fall because they are able to hold on to their own personal values and remind themselves of what is ultimately important in their life.
I don't expect the reader to understand this completely since I have a vague understanding of this model as well, but what I want to say is that after reflecting this model on myself, I was able to understand why I have been so depressed lately. I am not strong. I have forgotten my values and have been clinging on to external things in my life, such as school, marks, money, success and trying to impress my family. I have not been doing so well in terms of school and as a result, I lost hold of myself and began to fall and breakdown. But after reminding myself of what my ultimate goal in life really is, I started to feel better because success, money and school marks are not my values; they are the traditional values of my family that I have held onto because I have forgotten my own values.
I am not saying school, money and success are unimportant, but they shouldn't be the root of my life--something that determines who I am. Instead, they should be a leaf, something that I have to hold onto, but even if I lose it, I still have many others to hold on to.
happy things
MOVIES, MOVIES AND MORE MOVIES! There are many good movies coming out soon that I absolutely have to watch! This weekend I will be watching UP! which I have been stalling since forever! Movies that are in my upcoming list to watch are: Bruno, Transformers 2, Ice Age 3 (OMFG SO CUTE), Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (is it me or are the actors starting to get wayyyy too old for their parts now?) and maybe G.I. Joe.
interesting things
Girl who does not age: http://abcnews.go.com/2020/Health/Story?id=7880954&page=1
A 16-year old girl with the body and mind of an infant. I found this article and news segment absolutely fascinating! I've heard of older people having a mental age of young children and older people with bodies of an infant, but this seems to be a merge of the two!! And she still has baby teeth! I wish the best for her and her family.
